Tag Archives: anger

Rage Tears

Posted on March 8, 2016 by dyskinesia

When I was young, I wondered if I had an anger problem. My temper could be quick to flare and would burn so hot, so fast. It was a visceral reaction and would catch me by surprise. I attributed it … Continue reading →

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837 days and counting

Posted on December 16, 2012 by dyskinesia

I figured it out.  I have cried, nearly every day, for 837 days. On many of the days that I have cried, there have been more, far more than enough tears to make up for the days I didn’t. My … Continue reading →

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Of Hope and Fear

Posted on July 15, 2012 by dyskinesia

All of my life, I have clung to hope with a tenacity I can’t describe. I don’t know where it comes from. It is foolishness? Is it codependency? Is it an eternal optimism that is somehow hard coded into my … Continue reading →

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Motherly Love

Posted on June 2, 2009 by dyskinesia

I very recently made the mistake of exposing a vulnerability to my mother.  Several years ago,  I made a choice regarding an educational therapy for my son; the choice was not whether he would receive the therapy, but where and … Continue reading →

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Speak to me

Posted on April 1, 2009 by dyskinesia

It was my first year of college.  I’d chickened out and gone to a nearby state school that was a horrible fit for me:  HUGE, known for partying, freshmen living hell and gone from campus, a school known for agriculture … Continue reading →

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Unknown

Posted on February 27, 2009 by dyskinesia

WARNING:  This post could be a trigger.   I’m angry.  It cost me $10,000 in therapy to say that:  I’m angry. — *Richard Gere, Pretty Woman *(totally paraphrased because it isn’t on IMDB and I’m not bothering to look anywhere … Continue reading →

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Power

Posted on February 20, 2009 by dyskinesia

WARNING:  This post could be a trigger. I’d spent the summer becoming the new me.  Happier, healthier, 30 pounds lighter – thin for the first time in my life.  I was eating better, moving constantly, smiling more.  The exercise had … Continue reading →

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Violate yourself on the dotted line

Posted on October 9, 2008 by dyskinesia

A minimum of once a year, we stop, drop, and roll ourselves on out to the other side of town to sit with a bunch of public school system (PSS) people whom we do not know, and who do not … Continue reading →

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Less than zen

Posted on July 7, 2008 by dyskinesia

First and foremost, sorry I’ve been so quiet.  Y’all have been so patiently checking in, and I’ve been bizzzz-eeee with work and kid and summer and, ya know, stuff.  If I were here strictly for your entertainment value or for … Continue reading →

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14 Quarts Low

Posted on February 5, 2008 by dyskinesia

I’m restless. I’m listless. One of these is generally true at any given moment.  But, it’s moments like these, moments …nay DAYS like THESE… that cause the problem – days when I am both. Since this seems to have been … Continue reading →

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