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About dyskinesia

Woman, mother, human being, grammarian. I have Attention Deficit Disorder. My child has Asperger syndrome. Philosophy, laughter, therapy, living. Life after divorce.

A Little Bit of ADD

I was having the pleasure of being out with a very old friend the other night, someone I’ve known since we were both very young but haven’t gotten to spend time with in many years, and I did The Thing: … Continue reading

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On Grief – Part 2

A month. It feels like a year.  It feels like yesterday. The best friend I have ever had has been gone for one month.  I still can’t process it, honestly, even a little.  My brain knows that she is not … Continue reading

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Waking Up

It’s funny the things that you remember when you aren’t looking for them. I was getting ready for bed — collecting my phone and paperback book, slipping my flip-flops back on so I could take them off again next to … Continue reading

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On Grief – Part 1

This beautiful girl… Two weeks ago today, my dog died. Eleven characters. It takes 11 characters to say that she is gone – the most loaded, painful characters. Just typing that nearly destroys me. It took me a few minutes … Continue reading

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Rage Tears

When I was young, I wondered if I had an anger problem. My temper could be quick to flare and would burn so hot, so fast. It was a visceral reaction and would catch me by surprise. I attributed it … Continue reading

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837 days and counting

I figured it out.  I have cried, nearly every day, for 837 days. On many of the days that I have cried, there have been more, far more than enough tears to make up for the days I didn’t. My … Continue reading

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Potential

I had a realization this morning: I have always loved my family most for what they could be. I wonder why? Did I get glimpses & then it would just go completely off the rails & then the process keep … Continue reading

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Of Hope and Fear

All of my life, I have clung to hope with a tenacity I can’t describe. I don’t know where it comes from. It is foolishness? Is it codependency? Is it an eternal optimism that is somehow hard coded into my … Continue reading

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Overheard: Reincarnation

i wonder what would happen if, after this life, i was popcorn in my next life … You’d get eaten! yeah, okay, maybe i should pick something different.  i think i’d be a kid because being a kid is the … Continue reading

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Oy, my hip.

Okay, so it’s been so frickin long since I wrote a blog that WordPress changed everything (probably 2 or 3 times) since I was last here and it took me a solid 3 minutes to figure out how to post … Continue reading

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