Category Archives: The Ugly Truth

A Little Bit of ADD

I was having the pleasure of being out with a very old friend the other night, someone I’ve known since we were both very young but haven’t gotten to spend time with in many years, and I did The Thing: … Continue reading

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On Grief – Part 2

A month. It feels like a year.  It feels like yesterday. The best friend I have ever had has been gone for one month.  I still can’t process it, honestly, even a little.  My brain knows that she is not … Continue reading

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On Grief – Part 1

This beautiful girl… Two weeks ago today, my dog died. Eleven characters. It takes 11 characters to say that she is gone – the most loaded, painful characters. Just typing that nearly destroys me. It took me a few minutes … Continue reading

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837 days and counting

I figured it out.  I have cried, nearly every day, for 837 days. On many of the days that I have cried, there have been more, far more than enough tears to make up for the days I didn’t. My … Continue reading

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Of Hope and Fear

All of my life, I have clung to hope with a tenacity I can’t describe. I don’t know where it comes from. It is foolishness? Is it codependency? Is it an eternal optimism that is somehow hard coded into my … Continue reading

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Forgiveness

Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the … Continue reading

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There’s a Hole in the Bucket

To those of you who are real people, I apologize for the earworm. To those who are about to leave me spam-bot comments, Fak Off. Today was an incredibly draining day.  It started out simply with waking up knowing that … Continue reading

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Purple Banana

Lately that that tape has been playing in my head, you know the one (Doctor, everything’ll be all right … sorry, reflex) – the one loaded with every negative, bad, mean thing that anyone ever said to me?  I do … Continue reading

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Who put this wall here?

Every so often, I get tired. Now, I know:  I don’t sleep when I should, I work all the time, I don’t sleep as much as I should, I work all the time, I’ve pulled 2 all-nighters+most of the next … Continue reading

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Funky

I am feeling very funky today and do not know why. Luckily, I can say that this is aberrant; thank you, SNRI, hormones, and counseling.  And contrary to what might seem logical to someone who may be in a situation … Continue reading

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