As I sit here in heaving, gasping sobs, I wonder just how in the hell it is that the field (healthcare) I have dedicated my life to SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE I WANT TO HELP PEOPLE can so thoroughly, unyieldingly screw me over left, right, and center again and again and again and again, ad f’ing nauseum. How? Freakin’ HOW.
The answer I was given hope to have within 3 days (2 weeks ago) will not come for another 4 weeks from now, if I’m lucky. Why? Because I was ignored for 2 weeks — right up to the literal minute my provider is leaving for vacation.
When it happens so commonly, so repetitively, by so many different people, knowing I don’t deserve it just doesn’t seem to help.